my obsessions are controlling me and i’m terrified. i don’t know what to do.
i feel pathetic and useless, unwanted and undesirable.
tired of feeling guilty when i shouldn’t and don’t want to.
remembering what i used to feel and reliving the breaking off my heart or the numberous times or what is really just disappointment. i’m tired of crying, i’m tired of runnng away, i’m tired of sitting still. i’m tired of not functioning, not coping, not being able to breathe, not knowing where to go or how to be happy. i’m tired of incessantly vomiting and staying awake. i feel like i’m dying, i feel like i’m dead.